a place called home

1995
mom is preparing the breakfast for us
she called for everyone "my daughters..come and eat"
i never enjoy eating session
without taking my bath.i goes downstairs and pick up my bicycle
i left mom that has putting her effort early morning
preparing food for me..
my heart..so free with fresh air
enjoying the breeze i hit the stone and felt on the ground
my knee bleeds a lot and painful
i cried pushing my bicycle and i went home
mom hug me and put Gamat on the wound
she feed me with such a nice Nasi Lemak she made =)

~ the bez place always home
because i have mom.i have delicious nasi lemak and i was being hug =)

2007
i am now at Pahang.i miss my home...
i have very little friends here.
why is that people are so narrow minded about sarawakian
i was being isolated because i am different
which i think it is totally not fair for me!
but it is only one more week for me to stay here and i am going home
i buy lots of thing
key chain for my siblings.kerepek2.i am packing up my stuff
ready to fly!!
after finishing my exam..i never had a slip in my mind to shake hand with everyone
which everyone did since it is the last day of being a matrix student
but never i did..i rush to my room and called for taxi
getting ready..my heart says..2 hours then i am home..isma finally u r going home!!
i landed safely.dad pick me up and i received free kisses from dad on my forehead =)
finally im home!!such a heart warming place for me..
mom cook so delicious and i love the time laughing together with my siblings and share stories
home..its always the same.. =)

2012
home..never like before
but still i need to stay because it is the safest place after all..and the best place to cry when my heart broke thousand pieces
though no one will stay and give shoulder for me to cry on
but it is ok
life is like that and people always change
everyone are busy now including myself..
i wish to be like i was in 1995..
so innocence and always happy and never think of anything but bicycle and playing outside..

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I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it every day

And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
(adapted from avril lavigne lyric, nobody's home)